I am not at peace here and haven’t been for a long long time
I’m surprised to look back and see there was a time when it wasn’t like this
And I don’t know when it changed
I think when I left home I still felt close to my brothers
And when I went travelling
I feel all the judgements and anger
And resentment and a lot of sadness
I feel I am too focused on all the negative
And feel I cannot possibly be myself in any shape, way or form
My little voice was trying to come out publicly
And it does feel completely shut back up in its box
But maybe this is just the birthing canal labour pains
The crows are still speaking
And the rhythms of the moon are still marking the time
I’m trying to release the triggers and stay in the love ocean
I am releasing the triggers
but I’m not not succeeding at staying in the love ocean
My heart throbs